Hi LMR, great to read your first post!
The fact that you came here for the occasional KM and weren't 'ensnared' by hideous venom spitting apostates, but were later driven back by the organisation's own twisted teachings fascinates me, as I did the same. It's not 'apostate lies' that WT fear us reading on the interwebs, it's well-researched facts and flawless reasoning!
Slowly acclimatising to life without a JW belief system is a humbling experience, you seem calm and collected about taking your time with new ideas, which is a super healthy attitude to have :)
All the best in your journey!
One Last Kiss x